You were in love with a boy
His love was like the beginning and the end of everything
He bled sunshine and you saw him as the brightest thing in the room
He made your heart stink into your stomach everytime he said goodbye
He was golden although you faded into amber;
You were nothing compared to him
And here’s the best part
You loved him more than your life.
You jumped into the wells of his eyes as though they were beds of roses
Oh, little did you know
That there were monsters swimming just below the surface
That the dustiest attics of his minds were filled with ghosts
He was drowning in the lake of his dark miseries;
He was pulling himself apart at the seams
With trembling fingers, you tried to sew him back
You offered your shaking hand to pull him back up to the surface
You did everything just so he could have hid first breath after the long dive
Darling, how didn’t you realise?
He never wanted to be saved
And even less, never by your hand
But here’s the worst-
You still loved him so much more than your own life.